random thoughts & an organ recital

you are my Lord; apart from you i have no good thing. Psalm 16:2

1) shelly went out to run some errands yesterday & asked if i wanted anything. i said "yes, a gallon of gumption & a peck of perseverance & throw in a truckload of talent, too".

what is wrong with me?

mom used to recite a poem about getting old that had the line - how do i know that my youth is all spent is when my get up & go has got up and went - or something like that. it also talked about knowing you are dead when you read your obituary in the paper & something about your teeth in a jar, too.

all i want to do is sit on my rear (for frequent short intervals of time) & do nothing. i'm so full of ideas and can't seem to follow through on implementing them! or if i start them, i can't seem to finish them.

2) wanted to get away for a few days next week but have a coupon to get our carpeting cleaned & it's gonna expire on the 30th, so we should stay home, right?

3) my husband's name is shelly, mine is randee. people always think he's me & i'm him. they're wrong.

4) i'm always thinking that i'm losing my mind but shelly says if you think that, then you aren't. what does he know?

5) my memory is getting so bad. and i'm frequently informed that i can no longer call it "chemo brain". i guess there is a statute of limitations on "chemo brain". it's only been 8 1/2 yrs. since i did chemo. i'm sure it's still effecting me, right?

6) went to see julia & julie last night with corrie. it's about a gal who blogs about cooking julia child's cookbook. there were way too many truths about blogging in it. i recommend it to all you bloggers or lurkers like me who spend way toooo much time in cyberspace.

7) i actually sat still through the entire aforementioned movie. and last sunday, i actually sat still through an entire worship service. except for the time i was singing on praise team & for the very short time toward the end of pastor's message when i ran to the restroom. (when i got back he was talking about jon & kate & i was so ticked that i missed everything he had to say about them). anyone, my point is that for the last several months, i can't sit still to watch tv or at church or movies (but i don't go to movies, usually {because i can't sit still, hah})

8) i've been taking buspar for anxiety for 3 months now. maybe it's working.

9) i'm always saying that i have the "jitters". do you ever have the jitters?

10) i have severe psoriasis & take humira. is that what i take? all of sudden i can't remember. let me go check the refrigerator. i'll be right back...........................................................................................yep, humira. i give myself shots every other week. and i use taclon ointment, too. let me doublecheck that name.........................nope, it's called taclonex. and i also do ultraviolet b light treatments in my basement. that sounds weird, doesn't it? actually, it's real tall thingy with light bulbs. i know, i'll show you a photo. be right back - nay, never mind. you don't want to see it.

nothing's working at the moment. that's the way it is with psoriasis. a treatment works for awhile, & then it doesn't. i've tried just about everything short of bathing in the dead sea salts (which works for some people). i could do an entire series of posts on psoriasis. sort of like julie did about julia child. 500 treatments in 365 days. but that would be very boring & gross, too. the psoriasis can effect your organs. you know your skin is your biggest organ, don't you? it is.
i have a lot of skin & even more skin cells. 7 times more than you, that's how fast it grows. and it's on my scalp & messes up my nails, big time. i have psoriatic arthritis, too. the humira is keeping the arthritis, scalp & nails under control & that's why i'm continuing to take it. something new is on the horizon (something always is).

my dad had it. my sister does (for over 50 yrs). my son has it. it can be heriditary or "tends to run in families". one thing it isn't is contagious. let me repeat that - it is not contagious! lee ann rimes & stacy (on what not to wear) both have it. we're not related.

it does effect your self esteem. (now i'm having trouble with effect & affect - can i blame that on chemo brain?)

11) have i mentioned that i'm diabetic? yep. type 2. it also "tends to run in families". mom was (& her sister, too), 1 brother is, 1 sister is, my daughter is, my niece is. i take metformin, twice a day.

12) while i'm telling you all kinds of crazy things, how bout this? i'm allergic to all raw fruits & vegetables. it's actually called oral allergy syndrome. you sneak the fruit or vegetable past my throat & i'm okay. as in, coat the lettuce with a ton of salad dressing & i'll live. some things, though, a gallon of dressing wouldn't help. i must say no to live. i can eat most of them cooked. that's great. have you ever eaten cooked watermelon? me, neither. anyway, my ears start to itch, my lips blow up, my throat closes up & it's bad news. i'm paranoid crazy about swallowing things that might kill me. i don't take any chances. somethings i only have to be in a room with (like dill) for it to effect me. with dill, my lips start quivering & i have to vomit, all while my throat is closing up. crazy, huh?

13) let's see, what have we missed? oh yeah, the m.i.g.r.a.i.n.e.s! why are they coming more & more frequently?

14) do you think i should see a dr? or maybe a new dr? actually, i have several great ones. it's just the crazy combination of all these things that make each other thing worse or more complicated.

15) i had breast cancer back in 2000. aggressive tumor, did chemo(only 3 months of it), bout died, had mastectomy, no sign of cancer in amputated breast. God healed me. NO DOUBT.

16) i've lived a long life in these short 57 yrs.

17) do you wonder why this blog is called "life is good"? because - life IS good.

18) overextended my time on this chair - must get up now & move around. because of the jitters.

19) maybe i'll go start another project. i doooooo soooooo love starting projects.

20) oh, wait! just had a fabulous idea! 365 blog entries on why life is good. each entry would start & end with praising God.

i will praise you, O Lord, with all my heart;
i will tell of all your wonders.
i will be glad and rejoice in you;
i will sing praise to your name, O Most High.
Psalm 9:1-2

blessings & peace -